Today’s blog post is all about knowing that I’m worth it (…guess what? You are too!)
I remember one day when I was 5 years old, I was laying on my bed waiting for my family to get ready to go to church (or some kind of family dinner or something) all I know is I had on a fancy little dress.
While I was waiting I decided to pray. At 5 years old most little girls probably pray things like “I want my Mommy to buy me a new Polly Pocket set, and a new baby doll.”
Not me…you know what I prayed for? Somehow even as a little girl I knew that life was going to be more difficult for me because of my wheelchair than it would be for “normal” girls. I prayed that when I grew up I would find a man that would love me regardless of my chair; that they would love me just the way I am.
Here I am 30 years old and so far I’m still alone, always have been (aside from Jonathon.) We all have that one thing we want, whether it’s a baby…a specific job, our dream house; we all have something that we want above anything else. For me it has always been a relationship. A lot of people say a relationship won’t make you happy or whatever. Excuse me, but I call bulls*** on that. When I was with Jonathon I was the happiest I have ever been. I didn’t know it was even possible to be that happy before then to be completely honest. I’m not saying that is the only way I will ever be happy, but I know when I am not alone and I have a relationship I am at my happiest.
Over the last few days I have seen a lot of posts and/or videos pop up in my social media feeds about being worthy and knowing your worth, both as a woman with a disability and just a woman in general…pretty sure the universe has been trying to tell me something.
I’ll leave a few of the videos that have been popping up in my feeds below, because I bet it will do you guys some good to see them too.
First up Viola Davis and L’ORÉAL:
Next Ace Metaphor:
Ace mentions in the video above the difference between a “change girl” and the girls that have the value of a hundred dollar bill. I know for a fact that I am not a “change girl” I know I am one of those hundred dollar girls. One day the right man is gonna come around and realize that I’m worth it.
I’m so tired of the guys that don’t see what I am worth because they are only looking at my wheelchair, and the guys that only want to play with my feelings (and lady bits) but don’t want to commit to a relationship. I don’t have time for that anymore. I’m worthy of the real deal. I know I’m going to get exactly what I want one day, I’m tired of being alone…I don’t deserve to be alone. I’m worth it; and whatever it is that you want, you are worth it too. I promise.
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